Where I've been, where I'm going

Hi,

Yeah. January was the last time I posted. 

Yeah. 

So. 

We redid our homestudy. We get fingerprinted next week. 

Blogger friends that I made way way back when I was DTC have gotten their referral. Blogger friends that I have made way way back when I was DTC have dropped out for a number of reasons and my heart hurts for them.

I worry about keeping my job. No real reason to, but that's how I roll. 

I've noticed that with D and my discussions lately that we've been talking about what happens when we get her.  That we might get our referral in 2012 is astonishing me. 

 

I need to talk about things on this blog again. 

I need to talk about the election--and I thought how 2008 had the most frightening candidates. When I think that our political discourse has gotten as low as we can go, we find the door to the basement.  (Revised Moonlighting quote)

I need to talk about impending Motherhood.  Some of my hopes and fears. 

I need to talk about how I won't believe that I will be a mother until I have a child in my arms. 

Other stuff happened and that's another post.  I don't think I'll disappear again, but I don't just know yet. 

I'm a little scared.  I'm a little excited. 

and if you're still here...I'm glad.  Let me know please.

Comments

[Robin from Israel]

I'm still here, and smiling to see you pop up in my Reader. After so many years, it will be wonderful to see your turn come and your dream finally come true.

[Michelle]

Still here, and always will be. The day you get your referral will be a hard day for me, with our LID's being the same. I will cry , and some of the tears will be sad, but most of them will be ha ppy tears for you both. If one good thing came out of this journey, it is that I got to meet you and call you my friend.

[Julie]

Yay! You're back. Still crazy after all these years.?!

[OmegaMom]

Still here. Is it really looking like this will be the year?? I'm so glad for you.

[T.S.]

I'm still here. :-) I check back every so often just in case you've updated. Glad to see you're back and blogging again.

[Leanna]

I am still here, I actually check back often and wonder how things are with you! I was on this journey years ago.. I know the fear that this may not be real and I know the joy that it is when they place that hot sweaty baby in your hot sweaty arms and you ask yourself "now what" (Jianxi China, 2005!!) I am hoping with you!!

[orodemniades]

Hi! ((hugs))

I've been wondering how you've been doing. I can't believe you still don't have a child in your arms - that just effing crazy, if you ask me. Anyhoo, I'm glad your back.