My mother is dying

There. I said it. 

It's more than "not doing well." 

It's more than "the cancer has spread."

She is dying. 

There is nothing I can do about it. 

 

I saw her yesterday and she couldn't speak. Her eyes tracked me and she tried to smile. When I took her hand she squeezed back. I didn't have to wonder if she knew who I was. I told her it was okay to let go. I told her I would take care of my father. I told her I loved her and that she'd been an amazing mom. 

Then I left and cried. 

I'm still crying. 

She's hanging on--my stubborn mother. Who I love so so very much. 

I'm not ready for this. 

My mother is dying.  

Comments

[OmegaMom]

I am so sorry. Losing a parent is very hard. Major hugs to you. Use this space to help you deal.

[Rivkah T]

I am so, so sorry to hear this. Wishing you lots of strength.

[Dspence]

I am so sorry. Praying for you.

[Michelle]

My heart broke into a million little pieces for you the day you posted that your wonderful mother had passed. I too know the pain of losing a mother. Hugs, hugs and more hugs. You have been in my prayers and will continue to be.