There. I said it.
It's more than "not doing well."
It's more than "the cancer has spread."
She is dying.
There is nothing I can do about it.
I saw her yesterday and she couldn't speak. Her eyes tracked me and she tried to smile. When I took her hand she squeezed back. I didn't have to wonder if she knew who I was. I told her it was okay to let go. I told her I would take care of my father. I told her I loved her and that she'd been an amazing mom.
Then I left and cried.
I'm still crying.
She's hanging on--my stubborn mother. Who I love so so very much.
I'm not ready for this.
My mother is dying.
I am so sorry. Losing a parent is very hard. Major hugs to you. Use this space to help you deal.
Posted by: OmegaMom | April 04, 2014 at 08:30 AM
I am so, so sorry to hear this. Wishing you lots of strength.
Posted by: Rivkah T | April 05, 2014 at 08:02 PM
I am so sorry. Praying for you.
Posted by: Dspence | April 08, 2014 at 02:37 PM
My heart broke into a million little pieces for you the day you posted that your wonderful mother had passed. I too know the pain of losing a mother. Hugs, hugs and more hugs. You have been in my prayers and will continue to be.
Posted by: Michelle | April 08, 2014 at 08:10 PM